Passion Is Not Enough

I am not sure if my passion to become a doctor is a really boundless enthusiasm. Waniey!! Wake up and be strong, u have just finished one posting. Do not give up to soon. I'm not sure if I can pass my surgery posting. I am so bad in handling with failure because I never failed in my preclinical years.

I have no intention to brag, tapi seriously masa year 1 and year 2 xpernah pun takut failed cuma less confident je. Tak tau la, nak cakap basic science strong sangat tu takde la. Tak dapat dean list pun tapi alhamdulillah dari first block until last block, dapat maintain result B and B-. Masa tu in my opinion, berbekalkan result macam nie boleh la bawak pegi clinical years, cuma nak kena improve sikit.

But I was wrong, my basic science is so weak that during the BST, I cant answer basic pathology and anatomy questions. Bukan nak improve sikit, nak kena improve banyak kot. Bila lecturer dah buat how-can-she-pass-first prof exam-facial-expression, mulalah rasa down. "Oh my God, dont tell me you dont know this. Your anatomist will commit suicide, bla bla..." Ayat2 di atas sangat sarcastic dan langsung tak motivated, tapi deep inside my heart I feel I deserve them.

Dua ke tiga soalan tu ok lagi la. Tapi bila dah kena serangan bertubi2 boleh jadi cardiogenic shock. Bukan takut jawab salah. Ye, memang betol we learn from mistake, jangan takut buat silap. Tapi masalahnya otak memang kosong sampai tak boleh nak hentam. "Oh my God, I can see smoke coming from her head". Hmm...masa tu rasa diri dah sama level dengan Patrick.

"Kitak sik apa Wany, kitak kuat. Kamek sik pernah tengok kitak nangis" Menangis tak semestinya lemah. Dan dalam hidup, tak semestinya orang yang kuat akan terus kuat. Kalau explode boleh jadi lebih lemah dari orang yang selalu menangis.

Am I over reacting?? Saya tau semua orang cakap susah. Medic is the toughest course in the world. Tapi tu bukan alasan untuk sedapkan hati. Kalau macam tu sampai bila nak improve??

 I am disappointed..

 

My Chronological Achivements

 

Everyone must achieve something throughout their lives. It may not be the best but somehow there is must be something that has been accomplished. Compare straight 10 A's with only 5A's in exam, actually both are achievements. It depends on how you react on what you get. Sometime someone may have everything but still not be happy nor satisfied.

For me, kalau dah lulus tu cukup.. Alhamdulillah~~~ I have passed my first professional exam, but I still do not know my grad. Next week, there will be a meeting with my mentor. Nak briefing pasal year 3 and bagi detail on first prof result. Memang dah jadi kebiasaan kitaorang jumpa mentor bila result dah keluar (tu pun sebab kawan ajak.hehe) 

In my opinion, Malaysia is one of the worst exam-oriented in terms of academic achievements. So, I would like to share what I manage to accomplished so far. It might not be the best, but I'm happy with it.

UPSR (primary school) - 4A1B

PMR (secondary school) - 8A

SPM (secondary school) - 9A2B

Matriculation (pre-university) - 3.90

It's all about how hard you try in your life, even if you have failed, your struggle to strive for success is so great you will feel no remorse. I still have a long journey, wish me luck!!!! 

BIIGGG Exam!!

Tomorrow is the day. Its the First Professional Exam. I will be tested on everything I have learnt since I first enter the medical school. 3 minggu study week memang x akan cukup nak cover semua topik. Mulalah operasi mencari nota2 yang dah berhabuk untuk dibaca balit.haha. Buku rujukan? There's no time for that.

Nasib bait lecturer maok berik tips and menurut senior tips memang berguna. But everytime I skip notes which is not included in the tips, I feel unsafe. So I read the whole bunch of thick notes to make me feel confident. Tapi mistake la sebab sepatutnya habiskan baca and hafal tips ya dolok, then baruk baca nok lain sebab tips ya memang akan confirm kluar.

Alhamdulillah, dapat abiz baca semua. Tips pun sempat dicover. Tapi the last week ya memang speed abiz la. Nasib ada nota ringkas for almost topic. Berjaya cover semua 4 igek blok dalam year 2. (Blok maksudnya sistem. Mek orang study according to body system) First two weeks ilek2 jak. Juz dapat habiskan 4out of 9 blocks. Menurut senior lagik exam kali tok banyak fokus topik year 2. So menyesal la habiskan masa duak minggu ya padahal ckit jak kuar exam. So semua ada 8 blok dah. Blok 1 tinggal jak sebab kebanyakkan topik just intro.

Seperti biasa, dekat2 nak exam besar macam tok, past year adalah penting. X dapat main diat and baca jak. Maok main pikir and tulis skali.hehe. Nervous gila ehh nektok. Sebab ya blogging kejap mok hilangkan nervous.

Wish me luck!! X sabar mok pegi year 3 and masok clinical years. InsyaAllah...amin~~ \(^-^)/

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Cartoon = Junk Food for Brain?

Mama: Ada orang tua masih diat kartun.

Me: Mak tok untuk tontonan umum. Kamek gik dara mak, baruk 20. (Pande menjawab.haha. I dont know there's is so-called "this cartoon is for aged 12 and below only". Klasifikasi baru ka??haha)

Cartoon is a junk food for brain in the sense of addiction, I agree. But it is better than junk food for the following reasons:

1. At the moment of depress, both cartoons and junk food made me feel better to get my mind off of whatever something that makes me feel under the weather. :'( It calms me even just for a moment. 

2. Laughter!! which is the main purpose of the cartoon. Low threshold of fun when watching the cartoon I guess that it provides me good laugh every seconds! Laughter is the best medicine because it can stimulate the release of endogenous Endorphin into body system to act as natural pain and stress fighter. :D

3. There is a lot of creativity. Knuckles and Flapjack live in the mouth of Bubbie, the whale. Gary is a cat in Spongebob. How awesome is that! Thus it is not rigid, no need to be logical, unrealistic in the funny way. @.@

4. I do fall in love with the character itself. Mostly they are really adorable and sometimes, certain characters remind me with my own character. I love to bust my little brother just like Candace in Phineas and Ferb! The only difference is my brother is not capable of building a giant roller coaster in the backyard.hehe.

 Candace Flynn

5. Cartoons are short but get to the point. This explains why I am always fall asleep in the first 1 and half hour of two hours movie. ^.^zzzzz

6. Cartoons improve vocabulary skills and social skills. Dull and boring people should watch cartoon more to increase their sense of humor.hahaha. As for me, i love jokes with sarcasm.

 Sarcastic Squidward

7. There is always an happy ending where good overcomes evil. This works in every single episode of Phineas and Ferb. Perry, the platypus always wins over the stupid evil scheme of Dr Doofenshmirtz.

Perry the platypus vs Dr Doofenshmirtz

8. I love cute stuff! Cartoon never missed this element. At least one character in a particular is super adorable like Poof in The Fairly Odddparents and creepily-cute Flapjack. Patrick is also cute especially with his one-toothed smile. :)

One toothed Patrick

9. Thumbs up for making my brain becomes stuck on the catchy theme song. An excellent example will be Spongebob theme song. Besides, I really love the pirate laugh...harharhar!! Aye aye captain! ^v^ In addition,Phineas and Ferb also has a vast number of catchy songs.

Gitchi Gitchi Goo (I Love You)

10. Friendship and love are the two moral values that the cartoon can educate us. "Knowledge cant substitutes friendship. I'd rather be an idiot rather than losing you, Spongebob", says Patrick. I also still remember how I almost cry when I see Patamon from Digimon sacrifice itself to fight although it still cant evolve into mature and stronger stage compared to all his friends. Fortunately, at last it was able to evolve right before the evil creature attacked it

:: Now its time to watch my favourite cartoon, Spongebob Squarepants!! on Nickelodeon.Babai ::

Hachiko's True Story

"No Man Can Serve Two Masters"

This is a quote to describe loyalty which is the feeling or attitude of devoted attachment and affection.

Loyalty in simple words is faithfullness.

I am having breakfast this morning at the same time watching a touching true story about Hachiko on HBO.

'Hachi' means 'eight' and 'ko' means 'prince or duke'.
Hachiko @ Hachi is a dog from Akita breed which is a rare species.

There was about only 30 of them in this species in Japan at that moment. 

Picture of Hachiko

Dogs are very known for being a loyal companion but I never heard any as faithful as Hachi.

He was born on 10 November 1923 and was brought to Tokyo in 1924 by his owner, Hidesamuro Ueno, a college professor.

Everyday, Hachi would stand by the door watching his master left for work.

At the time Professor Ueno came home around 4 p.m, Hachi would go to Shibuya Station to meet him.

Shibuya station in prewar era

Hachi never tired on repeating the same act everyday, waiting for his master.

Though this simple act alone showed tremendous amount of loyalty, that was not the end of it.

On the following year, suddenly Ueno died because of stroke while at the university.

Sadly, Hachi did not realize his master was gone.

The dog keeps on returning to the train station every single day to await his master.

He became such a familiar presence there.

And in fact the station master had provided food and gave the dog a bed in the station.

However, Hachi never shifted his loyalties.

Everyday, he hopefully waited by the tracks as the train pulled in.

Searching for his bestfriend's face among the people getting off.

Hachi bronze statue

Hachi's love for his master impressed many people who passed through the station.

These include one of Prof Ueno former student who was became fascinated by the Akita breed for its loyalty.

He began to write articles about Hachiko and his remarkable breed.

Hachi exhibited in National Science Museum of Japan

Hachi died in 1935 at the age of 11 after 10 years of waiting for his master.

He is now rest in peace in National Science Museum of Japan, Ueno, Tokyo.

A year before his death, Shibuya Station installed a bronze statue to honor his loyalty.

The new version was created in 1948 because the original statue was melted down during World War 2.

Now the bronze statue of Hachiko still waiting as ever for his master to come.

This true story was filmed with the title Hachi: A Dog's Tale which was released in August 2009.

It hits the blockbuster success. Watch the trailer here

This is one of scene from the movie

Hachi as the puppy

So many wonderful memories that Hachi and his master created.

But too much memories cause too much pain too.

I just cant hold my tears watching this movie even in front of my other family members.
I cried my eyes off for the whole time and still crying.

It was very hard to accept that Hachi was left by his master without a goodbye.

It was sad that he was not realize that his master was gone.

And yet Hachi still believes one day his master will come until the last moment of his life...

::>>>Hachi's story is a very excellent example of a true loyal companion.

I'm questioning myself would I be loyal as this much to someone I love? ??
And that someone I love, can he be as faithful as Hachi???<<<::